Posts tagged friends
Posts tagged friends
I am sorry about that.
Truthfully nothing really has been going on.
I’ve started seeing a new counselor. Again. I’ve only had one appointment so far but I really like her. I feel at peace right now. I haven’t cut in 19 days.
I miss it. A lot. I miss the feeling of it. The release it gives. The freedom.
I don’t know what to say.
You know what? I love the friends I have now. I love every single person God has put in my life right now. Every single one of them is amazing. I feel connected to people for the first time in forever. I love having people I can depend on. People who love me. Who don’t judge me. Who want what is best for me.
It is an amazing feeling to have good people in my life.
I can’t stand the thought of losing any of them.
They are true friends. True family. I am grateful for them. I am grateful that God has given me this connection. That He is working through them and in turn though me.
I believe now, that in the end, I will be better. That there is a plan and it is for me.
i ruin everything
I don’t deserve the friends that I have.
They are all much better people than I am.
I honestly would not be surprised if I woke up one day and I no longer had them in my life.
I’m counting on that, in actuality.
I’m trying very hard to not become too attached.
They will not be around forever.
Neither will I
I am not going to sit here and list everything that has been significant in my life thus far. Not right now anyway. This is just the stuff that for whatever reason, God may have used to me bring me to where I am.
I don’t like making new friends, because I know that if I do, eventually they aren’t going to want me around anymore and they are going to push me away.
