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Give me strength. Give me understanding. Give me patience. Give me love. Give me peace. You are all of these things, God. Give me you.

I laid it all out. Told her everything. About the cutting, the drinking, the drugs and the suicidal thoughts. She was very supportive. It went much better than I expected. She didn’t freak out. She wants to help me and be here for me.

I don’t really know what else to say.

I just feel at peace right now. It’s a strange feeling. But I like it.

I hope it lasts.

People ask me all the time what my tattoo means.

A dove can represent many things, but it has three specific meanings for me, which is why I chose it for a tattoo. Why brand yourself in something that you don’t believe in?

1. Peace for the past- When I am sad or angry about something in my past, looking at my dove often make me feel at peace and I begin to accept the things that have happened.
2. Perseverance for the present- I often get very nervous when I am not sure how to handle a certain situation. Even if it is something I have done dozens of times in the past. I get very anxious when there are a lot of people around or it is really loud and I feel like I can’t breath. If I rub my tattoo on my arm, I can calm down.
3. Hope for the future- Often times, in mythology, a dove represents a new beginning. When I worry about the future, my dove reminds me that no matter what happens, I can control my future. Not in the sense that nothing bad will happen to me. Of course I don’t have control over that. I mean that no matter how other people treat me or whatever happens, I can control how I react to the situations ahead of me.

Ultimately I may not be in complete control over my life but I am in control over my spirit and my attitude towards the life given me.