Posts tagged pedophile
Posts tagged pedophile
The is the majority of what I can remember. This was really hard to write and my handwriting was really sloppy because I was pissed off. Just keep in mind this may be difficult to read. I really don’t know why I am putting it out here but he needs to be exposed. If you know me in real life and you choose to read it, please don’t treat me any different. I wrote this back in March and never read it after I did. I scanned in what I wrote, burned the originals and encrypted the files.
I am not fooling when I say this may be hard to read. It could bring crap up for you if you have experienced the same type of abuse. Just, use caution please.
Wow. Okay. Thanks, Dad.
First of all, I have no intention, nor have I ever had the intention of hurting any of my cousins. What their father did has nothing to do with them. They might be sad because of this or pissed off at me but ultimately it’s fucking irrelevant. They are victims too. NOT because of anything I have done, mind you. Because of their father and if anyone in my entire fucking family understood anything beyond their own selfish opinions, then they would recognize that too. That shit they may be experiencing may hurt for a while but join the freaking club. It isn’t me who is causing any of this. It’s Jesse. He is the one who tried to tear apart the family, not me. Maybe not ‘tear’ it a apart per se, but he was the one who saw our family as a fucking smörgåsbord for his own fucking pleasure. You’re calling ME the selfish one after he hurt 5 fucking people in this family. Fine! Fuck it! He is all yours…
Fuck you, Mike.
When I say my family doesn’t love me, I don’t mean they hate me. I know that they love me to some degree. What I do mean when I say that is that they don’t love me enough to care about me, to protect me or to respect me. They care more about the pedophile and would rather him be in our family. He should have gone to prison. Fuck all of you. He should have paid for all the damage he did to us. Not just to me. I’m not the one who tried to tear apart our family. That was him. He didn’t care enough to consider what he was doing. The damage he was causing. Fuck all of you. You don’t care about me, therefore I will force myself to not care about you.
he used to give me peppermints when he was done. at thanksgiving when we were at his house, i saw a bowl full of peppermints sitting on the sideboard. i remember thinking without saying, “oh, you are just giving those out now. you don’t have to earn them anymore. how generous in your old age.” i hate that i still like peppermints now.
